I want a garden and ...

I have got to see the sun manana

Mt. Verstovia climb... hardest hike I have ever been on... getting too old for this? Never!

Okay, so I am totally being a wanna be tonight. I am not good at being patient; never have been and most likely never will be. But somehow I keep having to learn this lesson over and over... enough already! I've got it! I stopped looking for a place in Spokane because Bob's company told him 2 weeks ago that they are sending him there to work on the Shriner's systems for 4 mos. I immediately saw this as a huge blessing. But now it has still been two weeks and we don't know when he is leaving Sitka (they extended to end of May a few days ago :-( ) but will send Bob on to his next project prior to that date. So, now he is in Nashville for the week for training and business and I am here alone with everything unsettled. It's unsettling to say the least. I know I am just writing to myself, but somehow it is helping me clear through the mess and feel that I can do this. I do certainly realize that my problem is so small and ridiculous compared to others who are living on unemployment, have no home and are wondering where their next meal is coming from or where they will be staying tonight. It kind of puts it into perspective when I sit here in this lovely loft, albeit the yard is a transformer yard, but it is VERY deceiving. For when you step inside the loft it is truly an amazing place. I can look out my window and see the ocean and can walk to it and pick up shells to my hearts content. I have had the opportunity to teach an amazingly smart bunch of teenagers in seminary and tomorrow is our last day with a big breakfast. I have made some good friends; even though many here are content to just stay in their own little lives and not allow me in. That is one of the things about moving alot; every new area has their long time friendships that don't seem to have room for new ones. A bit sad really, but I might be the same if given the chance to be an old timer. I am totally on a poor me tonight but I guess that's ok, because we all have them but not really something we talk about. So now it's out, I'm not always happy, I take crazy medicine to even out my craziness, I try to be worthy of all my blessings but sometimes I want what I want and not what is good for me. I really need the sun to come out tomorrow.